JimShow – I Miss My Daughters…
It's been nearly five months since I have seen them face-to-face. I have never been separated from them for this amount of time. I don't like it.
Keep in mind, they live in California. Before I moved, we promised that the plane ride was about two hours away and weekend trips along with holiday events were planned. It was all good. The plan, was perfect. Nothing could get in the way - except Rona.
A game changer was afoot.
For the last couple months, we have been trying to coordinate their visit. Flying is not an option right now for obvious reasons. Much like many of you, I GREATLY miss my family that I cannot see, especially my daughters. Even more frustrating? Flights are direct from their hometown, to Yakima.
Ok, this is where I get all parenty on ya - but Shelby and Briana are two of the most awesome human beings on the planet. Am I biased? Yes. Do I care? No. I LOVE my girls and am very proud of them.
My oldest, Briana is working on her Masters in Psychology. Shelby will graduate next year and will pursue a career in law. My daughters are truly the best part of me. I miss that connection. We Facetime on the reg and it's good to see their faces, but nothing compares to a real deal hug and embrace. I miss it.
I miss our conversations, our laughs - I even miss hearing about their challenges and struggles. Those conversations can be Facetimed, but you feel less connected.
We planned on them flying out for Fathers Day, but with everything going on right now, it's just not safe - and I. Don't. Like. It.
Now it looks like it will be another couple of months before I can hug them again.
There is a certain feeling about this. Without being too dramatic, it's almost like mourning a love ones passing - you can see pictures and watch videos, but you can't psychically touch and hug. For those in my situation, you know exactly how it feels. Yet, they are still alive - but you can't see them.
It’s very frustrating, sad and depressing. It is starting to test my limits on patience – something very rare for me. I am still trying to figure out how to manage this. It is truly uncharted territory for me – and I don’t like it.
If you are NOT in my situation, count yourself blessed.
Until then, I will continue to Facetime and look at pictures, longing to embrace my girls once again I also know when I hug them again, it will be the sweetest hug ever.
All My Best,