In the last edition of "Behind the Smile," I let you know that I would make these videos based off feelings and emotions, and that it might sometimes mean you would get two volumes in one day -- because let's be honest, that is how emotions work. They swing and they change and that is exactly what happens today.

Overall it was a fairly good day, work was smooth and it was steady water all the way to my voice coach ... where I lost all hope in myself. See, anxiety, depression and PTSD do not discriminate. They don't care if you are male or female.

So I am sitting at my vocal coach's house and we are singing right through our appointment and then out of nowhere, the little voice in my head that tells me I suck sticks its nose right where it doesn't belong. And although I know I am good enough and I know I am making progress, I did not feel it, and all the things that have been yelled to me over and over and over were rushing in and ruining what would have been a great day.

At that point, it was up to me to step up and take control over my day and make my voice louder than the one inside my head telling me to just go home and hide away.